Last night, due to a combination of disrupted sleep pattern induced insomnia and a screaming ear ache courtesy of my latest illness, I found myself wide awake and staring at the ceiling at 3:30 a.m. Anytime I find myself in this situation, I don't waste time trying to lull myself back to sleep. No, I pull out the big guns: my MP3 player and its library. Such was the case last night. After a few songs I was on the verge of sleep when the next song started playing: "If I Were a Rich Man" from Fiddler on the Roof.
Again, wide awake at 3:30 in the morning, I started thinking as the song progressed. If I were a rich woman, I wouldn't have to work hard. I wouldn't have to be stuck in an office from 8:30-5:00 each day, keeping up with an endless parade of people, prescriptions, and phone calls. I figured I'd work part-time- just enough to have "something to do" a few times a week, but leaving me plenty of time to pursue other hobbies.
If I were a rich woman, I too would build a big house. I wouldn't be as focused on the staircases as Tevye was, but you can be sure I'd have a wrap-around porch. Rather than a city house, I'd want a big spread in the country; and I too would have chicks and turkeys and geese and ducks, all squawking just as noisily as they could. I have a long list of plants that would fill my gardens in the summer and cupboards in the winter.
Tevye might have wanted the important men to come to him with their problems, but I figured that in my wealth I would have people coming to me for my writing expertise, seeing as how I would have used all that time I lack to sit on my patio and write and build my freelance career. Rather than a praying in a seat by the eastern wall, I'd be greeting the sunrise from the eastern side of the house as I enjoyed breakfast on that nice porch I'd built.
"LORD who made the lion and the lamb. You decreed I should be what I am. Would it spoil some vast eternal plan, if I were a wealthy man?" As the song ended, so did my little dream world. I'm sure on many, many levels my life would be nothing like it is if I were in a different position in life. Just from reading the above paragraphs, if I were a rich woman I'd be more lazy and selfish than I already am! In light of that, I'd rather keep the people and things that I have now, which have provided me with an extremely blessed life, than risk that happiness and joy for something as fleeting as wealth. Deep thoughts for a Sunday night, I know.
So as another weekend comes to a close and I'm forced to deal with the fact that work is less than twelve hours away, I'll just have to keep dreaming that I'm wealthy enough to not have to think about going to work. Ha.
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